6 Months already…

It’s so hard to believe that our little girl is already 6 months old. She has grown so much and affected so many in her short time here already. We have had so many firsts: smiles, foods, rollovers, weekends away, and even our first swimming lessons. She is growing into her own little person more and more each day and just when Andrew and I think we can’t love her any more than we already do, she gives us a look, a giggle, and we fall more and more in love with her.

The love Andrew and I have for each other is also growing. Watching him play with her on the floor or watching them fall asleep together, makes my heart race in a way I didn’t even know was possible.

I can not wait to see what the next 6 months have in store for our little family.

6 Months

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My Birth Story

December 2nd, 2017

It was a warm Summer night and my parents had come to stay in the lead up to the birth of our baby. The day before I had felt some minor discomfort and contractions. Bub was now 6 days overdue and all we could do was weight. At 6:25 pm I could feel the contractions becoming stronger. The days were drawing out and the only way I could pass the time was to play Dice (family dice game). Andrew and I were on out 100th game for the day. I was having trouble tallying the scores so we called it quits for the day and I went inside to cook dinner with Mum.

Halfway through dinner, I got up to get seconds and my waters broke while standing in the kitchen. My contractions were regular but I was still able to hold conversations during them. So while I jumped in the shower to clean up Mum moped the kitchen floors. I can back downstairs called the Hospital and continued to watch the Rugby World Cup with everyone. We wanted to labor at home for as long as possible before going in. I couldn’t think of anything worse than going into the hospital and being told to go home or sit in a hospital room for hours just waiting. I sat rocking on the exercise ball that had been a god sent through my whole pregnancy while Australia won.

9:30 hit the game ended and I took one look at Andrew and said ‘Ok I think it’s time to go.’ We got in the car and off we went just Andrew and I. The car ride felt like it took forever. We got to the Sunshine Coast University Hospital around 10:00pm. I thought the drive took forever the walk from the car park to the Birthing Suit was longer still. A lovely staff member met us halfway with a wheelchair. She later said to Andrew ‘We didn’t want another baby born in the hallway’.

Once in the birthing suit, the nurses got all the paperwork sorted and did an examination.

WE WERE ALREADY 10cm DIALATED. 

There was no time for any other drugs. Lucky we wanted to have as close to natural birth as possible. So with the gas & air in my hand we started pushing.

December 3rd, 2017

It took a while before you started crowning (roughly 90mins). But then it was all go. We IMG_3642delivered at 1:41am and the first thing this Mama asked was ‘Is it a boy or a girl?’ They
pulled the blanket back to show us our perfectly pink and gooey little Girl. She was finally here. Andrew and I looked at each other in disbelief. Having boys being
prodominent in both families we thought our chances of having a littler girl was extreamly slim. Andrew cut the corsd and they rushed her over to the suction as she had swolloed some Merconium on her way into our world. I finally let go of andrew’s home and demanded he stay by her side no matter what happened.

Waiting for her to cry was the longest few minutes of my life. I felt that my whole world depended on it. I guess to a degree it did. Both our worlds did. That cry was the sweetest noise in the world. The handed her to me for skin to skin Facetune_04-04-2018-20-39-36and I could hardly breath. My whole world had changed in those few hours.

We stayed in birthing suit for over an hour just being a family. No one else (other than the hospital staff) knew you were Earth-side. You were our secrete. Once we arrived in our room we sent a text out to our parents letting them know both Mother and Baby were healthy and safe, but we decided to keep the secret of your gender for a little while longer. We just laid in bed our new family of three stairing at our beautiful baby girl. We
had ideas as to what we would name her but it wasn’t until we spent a few hours with her that we made our desicion.

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At 6:30 we decided it was time to share our secrete. We first called Andrew’s parent with Facetime. We had taken a Blue and Pink blanket to the hospital to let people know. So with you wrapped in a Pink blanket we introduced Millie to her Nana & Mac for the first time (as they were not able to join us from so far away). They were so thrilled to have another little girl join their family. Next we had to wait for my parents. I had spoken to them on the phone but had not told them yet as they would be coming straight to the hospital once visiting hours started. The had to wait until 11:00 am (a littl bit cruel) but we 39055276_2345881582103553_9019898571092131840_nwanted to see their faces as this was thier first grandchild and wanted it to be special for them and us.

The staff told us at 10:50 that they had been pacing up and down outside the doors for at least 15minutes. They burst through the doors as soon as they opened. Grandad rushed past Grandma, Andrew and myself as he was going to be the first to hold his first grandchild. Grandma stood there in disbelief, shaking and said ‘Is it really a girl?’. There was so much love in that room at that moment.

There is still so much love in our lives. This little girl is surrounded by so many loving people woho would do anything for her. And though she has only been on this earth a few days, she already has Mama & Daddy wrapped around her little finger. Just the way it should be.

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My Second Trimester

The second Trimester has been a breeze. I’m sorry to all those who have had a terrible time during pregnancy, I can’t even imagine. But I have been so lucky. I have had so much energy, healthy cravings and so much to do that the time has flown by. Yes after a hectic day on placement all I have wanted to do is go home and sleep but I imagine this is normal for all students being thrust back into full-time work.

I have had a few hard days emotionally due to things that I have seen but hormones have been in check for most of it. It helps that Andrew (your dad) is the most amazing IMG_1374man in the world. He helps with everything. But he always has. Cooking, cleaning, dropping us off and picking us up from the hospital. He has even started coming home with little presents for you. Every time he does my heart melts a little bit. At first, it was your first Broncos jersey. Then the Broncos teddy bear. Are we noticing a theme here?

You have one amazing daddy little one. The only problem we have been having is choosing your name. Mummy and Daddy just can not agree. We have a boys name if you’re a boy but girls names are very tricky. We didn’t realize there are so many people we don’t like. And the ones that we do like are very common. This has been making this a very hard choice for us.

You are growing so fast at the moment. My belly seems to have blown up at 21 weeks. I went from having this tiny little belly to something that most of my clothes won’t fit 21623942_10155260731751622_853549424_nanymore. But it’s ok you’re worth it. Our precious little Mini Mac. Also, you are moving so much now. What used to be a little flutter in my belly, have grown too big movements that Daddy can feel. I think when you start to do big kicks daddy will get more excited. Every time he puts his hands on you (mummies belly) to feel you move, you stop. Be nice to daddy, he does so much for us.

I have loved this trimester, so much. Grandma says that I’m the happiest she has ever seen me. Grandad thinks I’m glowing, and daddy and I can not believe how fast the time is going. We are at 26 weeks this week and as you can see you and mummy are growing so big. It hard to believe that 20 weeks ago you were the size of a single grain of rice. now you’re the size of a packet of Oreos. Our love for you is growing just as fast.

We can not wait to meet you. Entering our Third Trimester is so excited. Only three months left until we get to see your sweet little face and get to cover you in kisses.

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Moving Day

I have spent the last few weeks packing everything up from our first home together. It’s been a lot harder than what I thought. We spent the first 6 years of our relationship living in this sweet little 2 bedroom flat and we have had roommates come and go but it has always remained our home.

We may only be moving 100mt away but this drafty 2 bedroom flat with the horrible hot water system will always be our first home. And I wouldn’t have changed it for the world.

We will be moving into my childhood home (thanks to your amazing grandparents) and when you come home from the hospital your nursery will be what use to be my old room.

One thing I will say is moving when pregnant is really hard. I’m trying to do stuff but your Dad and Grandma keep telling me to take it easy and not lift anything too heavy so it’s been a bit of a slow process and I have felt a little bit useless at times. But we go there.

Tonight will be our first night in our first FAMILY HOME. I know it’s still a few months away but I can’t wait to bring you home.

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Goodbye Mons Mari, you were a great first home.

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Touched my soul

I have recently read some of the amazing work of Rupi Kaur, ‘Milk and Honey’. I had 2f00d44d8f4c654a817383586044a6b4read so many different reviews on it and I was in a bookshop the other day and it was screaming at me. I had seen it before but had so many other things to read. But the other day I saw it and I had to have it. I don’t know why.

This book broke me. I cried more times than I would like to admit and I can’t blame it all on the hormones. It is such a beautiful book. One poem, in particular,  made me think of my childhood. Reminded me of my dad and how he loved not only all his children but how much he dotes on my mother.

Being pregnant myself I feel it resonated even deeper than a simple memory. I read this poem over and over again, and still, it brings a tear to my eye. I recommend every woman should read this book. It is astounding on so many levels.

 

When my mother was pregnant

with her second child, I was four

I pointed at her swollen belly confused at how

my mother had gotten so big in such little time

my father scooped me up in his tree trunk arms and

said the closest thing to god on earth

is a woman’s body, it’s where life comes from

and to have a grown man tell me something

so powerful at such a young age

changed me to see the entire universe

rested at my mother’s feet

– Rupi Kaur-

 

Hormones are not fun

So my hormones are in full swing now.

I went to get cheeseburger shaker fries from MacDonalds (that’s all I wanted) and I got halfway home before I checked the bag to find the fries with no shaker seasoning. I had to pull the car over to the side of the road cos I couldn’t see through the tears.

I got home and couldn’t even eat the chips they had given me cause I was too upset so they went to the dog.

It’s funny now. But it really wasn’t at the time.

This is not the fun part.

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